Based in Frome, somerset, #fitMess is a blog by Joanna Beale. Her posts draw on her work as a personal trainer, as well as her own personal past experience of significant obesity.  Her general focus is overall wellness and body positivity.

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My life is a show. Sometimes a hilarious '90s sitcom (you had better believe it's Friends, bitch); sometimes the Christmas episode of Eastenders. Every day, I try to coach the very best out of the people who are my clients. Every day, I show them how great they can, and will, be.

Lately, I'm reminded of the importance of the authenticity of self that is required to get a job done well. Authenticity is the cornerstone of being a #fitMess.  

All too often we get wrapped up in feelings of not being 'good enough' or not 'having what it takes', whether that be in our work, our relationships, fitness, whatever.  

If you're showing up, if you're giving it your all, if you're busting your ass... that all means shit if you're faking it. But when you do it honestly, that's when the world becomes your oyster. 

Being the person I am, the mother I am, the businesswoman I am - I tried a bunch of other versions before I got sick and tired of it. I want the best for my kids, but I'm not fighting over who's got the best pushchair or steaming five different kinds of vegetables every hour. Who gives a shit as long as they're safe and happy? I got upset and confused with the direction my business was taking until I realised that was because I wasn't taking control of it in the way I needed to. I was afraid of speaking up for myself; afraid to be criticised or to be wrong. I was too preoccupied trying to do it the 'right' way, when all I needed to do was get it done my way. 

So, who am I?

- I'm still a little afraid sometimes. Taking risks doesn't come easy to me, but it fulfils me when I try.

- Inside, I can still feel that teenager who lied about her taste in music to try to appear cooler. I'm not cool, but now that really doesn't matter.

- I have a really filthy mouth and I think I'm hilarious.  If you disagree on this point, we probably won't get on. 

- I have now accepted that I'm not everyone's cup of tea, and that's a lot less time-consuming than constantly trying to please everyone. There's the added benefit that I can honestly admit there are some people I don't like, either.

- If there's one single thing that defines me, it's a burning desire to improve every day. I want to be challenged, to keep trying, to fail sometimes, and to strive. 

To be on top of your game, you've got to know how to bounce from the bottom. Not once, or twice, but every damn time. You have to be you in every challenge; you have to bring yourself - your real, true self - into every fight. With every bounce, resilience comes. What follows is confidence, the ability to be unafraid of failing. Your authentic self has no competition, and no quest for perfection.

So, when each episode of your show begins, accept that the plotline is going to take some twists and turns along the way. But every time the credits roll, you're always going to be the fucking hero.



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